Sunday, 29 December 2013

The million dollar question

The 1 million dollar question

Which is the worst addiction ever gambling or smoking? For one, why buy something that would eventually kill you? Why sell the damn thing in the first place.  If you wanted to die in the first place why don't you just killed yourself earlier instead of having everyone join you second hand. Seriously some of us still value our lives and what you're just polluting our oxygen. And when they diss your smoke you become irrational. Like what Mr. Zietzke says about the atomic bomb, why spend billions of dollars creating weapons that would just kill us and end the world? Instead of using it for donating to charity or feeding it to the kids starving in Africa or phillipines or the victims of Typhoon Yolanda they what? Bathe in pools of cash instead of just giving the retire funds to the people like they should, its like that stupid pork barrel, too much corruption in our society. And Gambling, why gamble when you have other things to do than waste precious cash. Instead of depending on luck which, 99% of the time you are unlucky why don't you just buy food for your kids or something else for safe keeping. Instead of going Vegas, Casino's, slot machines burning all your money till you're in debt why don't you just do something more productive or if not then play Candy crush or Jelly Splash, its free and hey, addictive, plus you don't waste cash. And for y'all smokers, I know it relieves stress, so what? You get more stressed later when you have bills to pay for all the sickness you caught. You spend more cash in smoke than something that kills you less. Instead of smoking your lungs out why dont you just chew on gum and candy, its way more cheaper, and maybe that could reduce your stress as well. 

I'm not just talking about just this two addictions: drugs, alcohol, and other additions you can imagine are other things I'm probably including in my dissing right now. So the answer to the question? Well for me the answer is their all WORST. If you just use your common sense you'll understand too. God gave YOU his body, its HIS body, what you do to that body is hurting HIS body! Shouldn't you be grateful he gave you that body? Why ruin it? And gambling? Well its your lost, he gave us plants and trees, waters and animals to feed on. We probably wouldn't be gambling if we still had that barter trade system.

So now that its a new year I bet most of you have this New Years resolution. And like the preacher in my church says, that we make resolutions but after three months or so we go back to our addictions anyway. 

So there is no REAL, FACTUAL answer  in that million dollar question, but here is the million dollar answer in general life and not to that question: please just stop. Stop those addictions, stop those corrupt deeds. Stop with the violence, stop with the hate, and for the love of PEACE, just love, LOVE one another and have a safe, prosperous new year and other years to come. 

Sunday, 8 December 2013

New work!

New work on wattpad and writerscafe, pls check it out on the tab above (writerscafe) or go to the link --> Skyward to the direct link on wattpad. Hope y'all like it feel free to vote and comment, follow and I'll also follow back :) thanks!
Quick overview:
Skyward is a story about the 17 year old teenage girl Katie Stokes living a practically normal teenage life. The she dreams of something weird involving wings, darkness, and screams belonging to angels her whole life begins to change when she meets two handsome men, and thus her life with the world of Golden Wings and Black Hawks begins.

Friday, 15 November 2013

Butterflies

Everyday feels like a blissful dream, being in love is just a wonderful feeling. Waking up and wanting to see his face, and butterflies in your stomach seeing him right in front of you. His smile that makes your heart skip a beat, his eyes blinding the world around you - memorized into such beautiful trance. The funny thing is after a dream about seeing him smile, then the next morning seeing him flash that smile giving that blissful "butterflies" kind of feeling just even got better despite how silly it would be to think about how this all really relate. For two consecutive days morning and late afternoon while I walk the dog thinking about you, butterflies surrounded me, yellow and as bright as day, its delicately chiseled body circling and following me as I wonder about you. Is nature speaking to me? Spirits? An omen? The sight so blissful makes me wonder what it all means, hopefully its something good. <3 :)

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Count down to October fest

As of tomorrow, we'll be partying our hearts out, agree? I can't wait! October fest Tommorow would be held lunch in our school, its gonna be a blaasssttt!! So what's y'all's costume? I know what I am! :3 little creepy doll girl in a white black floral dress, school girl shoes and ribboned head band. Credits to my friend Jaydene who would be doing my male up and make me creepy or cute whichever you look at it ;)

Friday, 25 October 2013

Happy Halloween!

Sorry for the long posts, really busy with school and club activities. This year my schools Japanese Club would be doing "The Grudge vs. The Ring" two similar horror movies specifically originated from Japan. Really similar with the lady crawling out except the diffrence is is that one is in the well and one is from the TV etc. Also one has a little boy and one has a cursed box. Symbolism (the face of the story), one is the eye and one is the box and the ring. (Correct me if I'm wrong)

This year would be a blast! Our performers would be dancing Thriller and a face off with the grudge and the ring. And our booth, let's just say i would be dressing up as the grudge in the well handing out orders ;)

So let's spice things up a bit before I go about my business. Hopefully I'll try to make a lot of these as days come and post them here!

#SaturdayKnockKnockJokes4Laughs

Two men where casually drinking. Man 1 was complaining about his wife, while the other (Man 2), a single wedlock free man notorious for being a player, listened intently despite the fact he could care less. Man 1 then reminsinced his wedding with his wife and joked about how after the wedding he had a big hole in his pockets (assuming that it meant that the wedding was huge and expensive). Man 2, after downing his 20th beer that night snickered and dismissed it immediately "so why don't you divorce her." he said coldly. Man 1 batted his eyelashes "easy for you to say you don't have to worry about your family, you just sleep and go with anyone." Man 2 grunted but didnt find it offensive, it was true. "Then Let Me ask you this," he said "How Many Wives can a man have?" "three... four... many like you?" "No." "Then what?" "16." "I can understand that you're a player so assuming that could fit your category, but I dont see why that number." "Well you know how the priest says FOR RICHer FOR POORer FOR BETTER FOR WORST. ADD THEM TOGETHER AND YOU GET SIXTEEN!"

Saturday, 14 September 2013

Mortal Instruments Series

Hey guys its been a while. I've been busy with school lately, too many projects for a junior like me... Especially in AP Lang. I've been busy that I barely go online! I've been reading as well, I would like to thank my friend grace for recommending me a book from the Mortal Instruments Series. 

I just love the Mortal Instruments Series, reading the first book: City of Bones by Cassandra Clare, makes me wanna watch the movie! (Gawd Jace is hawt) 

Quick summary:
City of Bones is the first out of the rest of the trilogy (in actuality there are currently 5 books and the latest would come out next year May 27 2014. Pls see their official page for more updates.) talks about the 16 year old Clary who suddenly witnesses a murder at a bar that she alone could see and no one could, she is then revealed to the world of supernatural, the shadow hunters and is teaming up with one of the shadow hunters jace after her mothers disappearance, and everything that comes with it just gets weirder and suspenseful to the point you can't drop the book until you finish reading it. Their world get smaller and the past secrets unveil and peice up the missing parts of the puzzle.

Mortal Instruments is my favorite book so far, and I really admire Cassandra Clare for her awesome works in the Shadow Hunters World (she is the author of the other shadow hunter books similar to mortal instruments Like infernal devices)

Honestly I felt a little unease at the end (im a person who would criticize, ask questions and spoilers) but I'll tell you now: after you finish the book you must read the next book to feel content coz I did. 

I've been cussing, laughing, blushing basically making all sorts of funny expression reading the books, and I just love it. I'm shocked to find out the biggest secret that changes their lives coz I'm a big fan of their love team... 

Anyhow, since I'm a big fan I'd like to share some of my fave quotes from the book:

Pg. 40
Jace: I said his poetry is terrible. It sounds like he ate a dictionary and started vomiting up words at random.

Pg. 44
Clary: are you threatening to kidnap me?
Jace: if you want to look at it that way, yes.

Pg. 86
Jace:The meek may inherit the world but at the moment it belongs to the conceit, like me.

Pg. 87
Jace: just be glad you hit me and not Alec, he could have hit you back

Pg. 100
Clary: I figured all your classes were stuff like slaughter 101 and be heading for beginners 

Pg. 101
Jace: stay away from my blades. In fact don't touch any of my weapons without my permission.

Pg. 102
Madame Dorothea: if you were half as funny as you thought you were, my boy, you'd be twice as funny as you are"
Jace: I'm not quite sure what she meant by that (me too...)

Pg. 160
"If there was one thing she (clary) learned from all this it was how easy it was to loose everything you had always thought you'd have forever"

Pg. 175
Jace: I don't see why Mudanes (humans) apologize for things that aren't their fault

Pg. 187
Jace: and next time you're planning to injure yourself to get my attention just remember that a little sweet talk works wonders."

Pg. 189
Jace: Turn left!left! I said to take Broadway you brain dead moron!

Pg. 205
To love is to destroy and that to be loved to be the one destroyed 

Pg. 210 
Isabelle: don't look at me look at yourself 

Spoiler: ALEC IS GAY

Pg. 223
Jace: one less leech with a fancy ride, my heart bleeds.

Pg. 97:
Valentine: a werewolf who fights with a sword and dagger is as unnatural as a dog who eats with a fork and a knife.

Pg. 414 
Clary: so only when the moon is partly full you only feel a little wolfy?
Luke: you could say that
Clary: well you can go ahead and hang your head out the car window when you feel like it
Luke: I'm a werewolf not a golden retriever 

Pg. 459
Valentine: I have a suggestion
Luke: let me guess its don't kill me isn't it.

Majority of the funny quotes highlight Jace's egotistical nature, the dude got a badass sense of Witt.

"Call me maybe." - Magnus. 

Spoiler: Alec is gay, they encounter the dude hosting a party name Magnus. I kept laughing when he said the above quote. (He also visits Alec when he got hurt, curing all his broken bones... You can figure what he had done with him and Alec can't remember... XD) 

Monday, 2 September 2013

Smoking

Honestly I don't really like people who smoke (not that I don't want to be friends with people like you since I have some friends who do and a dad) BUT just make sure you don't smoke in front of me. It really gets annoying, my dad smokes in the house and for me, it's hard to breathe, not only that but he's sick and he still doesn't want to stop. Not only is he exposed to 1st hand smoking but I'm exposed to 2nd! Smoking takes away days or even years of your life, instead of living longer you are killing yourself early!

Thursday, 29 August 2013

Presenting the Lovely Assassin Series

Currently project (man i keep skipping every work i have in writing) the lovely assassin series.

Book 1

 Book 2
Apparently, I started on book two first that book one. (Got excited lol) Will update the chapters however, so if the cover looks awesome right now, get ready to start reading the first few chapters at : Book 2: Vixen

The stories are basically the female Robin Hood (you'll know why once you read it) ;)

Kick Start The Morning

My brother woke me up so early (apparently pissing me off because i'm still half asleep) to start on our chores. I've been cleaning for 4 hours until just now (lol) and kick start the beginning of the afternoon with a quick run (5 minutes) surprisingly enough I managed to survive without stopping out of breath and for water :) and my feet aren't even kill me yet. (I bet it'll be pretty much sore when I wake up tomorrow morning) but anyhow I'll just take a quick bath and continue on my writing :)

Tuesday, 27 August 2013

We all had that time...

You gotta admit, when you we're young, or even until now, you still do this to your parents ;)
there's no doubt that they'll give in eventually... well of course they will to Kim Hyun Joong, lol. Cutest begging puppy expression, I may add ;). When we want something... when we are guilty... basically this is all it takes to get out of trouble or get what you want when it comes to mommy and daddy, AGREE? 

Thursday, 22 August 2013

Hey guys!

Okay so I'm psyched with my current work, I keep dropping every writing project I had and finally sticked to this, hopefully my writers block would be gone so I could continue on the remaining chapters. I already made a book cover for my recent work, UNEXPECTED.

Pretty awesome huh? I edited it all by myself. (Johan from the left, April from the right) The first five chapters are up in Writer's cafe (Direct Link Above) it isn't perfect so there would be some typo's, I'm still writing the next chapters and it would be up soon :)

What is the story about?

April the cold blooded artist is content with her life, her mother died the moment she (April) was born in this world all because a lunatic mass murder who had taken revenge to her father. In contrast, her father (a legendary young cop) does everything he can to protect his daughter but is quite clumsy and has a weak spot for his vicious - angelic daughter having her save his smoking hot ass all the time. Things are slowly changing in the McDaniel's household and when April least expect it she is suddenly living with her worst nightmare Johan Gibson, and that's only the beginning of her unexpected life.

Sunday, 18 August 2013

While I'm at it...

Okay so today I've been openminded and my days going out really well :) Early morning church lessons that are really inspiring, and I really love our lesson today about the second coming of the lord. "People would ridicule and question his coming and his words but once judgement comes, be prepared for what the future would hold." also I had my heart skip a beat (not going to give too much info in that ;) *smirk*)  and my writing is going out well as well! I got my first review on my poem wide awake about trickery and deceit and I really thought no one would read them especially this blog! So I'm really touched. So while I'm in the category of writing, I just wanted to say my thanks here as well :)

Saturday, 17 August 2013

Summer End

Sorry for the long time I haven't posted! It's been a while :) I'm feeling really down since my Summer Vacations is almost over. I haven't had internet in my iPod too so it's hard to get in touch. My summer was kind of laid a back actually, and I feel like I didn't accomplish much. On the other hand, I've been practicing my writing, which is kind of tricky since I've been jumping from project to project with all the hysterics happening lately. I've lost my writing spark, and entered the stage of writers block for a while and so I've laid back on the writing as well, but for now I'm back in writing. I've promise I'd publish my work online, and I do have it. I have finished maybe like 3 amateur book that I still need to edit. I'm not a professional but I'm striving, after all my books wouldn't work out if it weren't for those sudden struck of inspiration. Lately I felt inspired and used it to my current book, which surprisingly is coming into pieces, with 79 pages types, and I'm still editing it through, it's my first longest work, that I put up too much effort in.

Before the end of summer which is about 3 or so weeks away, I'm hoping to finish my current work for real, and finish editing the others that I had done and couldn't put up so much time to editing. And the publishing... I'm still young, and I have no money for that. But I do plan on using my skills for profit in the future, so at the very least I'll be fixing up my writing skills and focus on my learning when school starts. (I'm gonna be a junior :'( and I'm sure I'll be very busy especially in AP Lang.) 

Until the end, I'm sorry for the late post, my posts would be stalled for some time (I'm not even sure if people are even reading my blogs so I'm just technically talking to myself) and when I do get the time like weekends in the future, I'll try my best to entertain you with my simple posts! 

Also check out my recent posts in my other blogs To Love And Inspire & Fantasy Forever if you do have the time, I'll update them as well!

Wednesday, 7 August 2013

Revealed!

I like to keep it a secret. As seen from my public profiles :) but for the first time... 

Winking is my trademark pose so #DontJudgeMe. @j9_perez

Tuesday, 6 August 2013

Coming down with the flu...

Okay so my flu isn't the reason I haven't been posting :) I have been busy with my projects and I don't have any time to tend to my blogs. But now while I'm at it, why not post a little something? 

Being sick is the worst experience if your a person like me, poor immune system and well annoyed by the effects. I've been sniffing, sneezing, coughing and my nose is well.... itching. My nose is clogged up at night which make it hard to sleep and well I feel tired all the time. My family is the type who doesn't take me seriously, sad life I know, and waits until the last minute, where it already worsens. 

I'm somewhat feeling better and up and ready to tend to my business. 

In the midst of summer, sometimes a month before school starts me and my brother tend to fall ill. Nothing serious just that the weather from where I live is really screwed up. It's really hot out and out of nowhere it suddenly rains. 

Flu's between August through September is really common in the tropics we are adviced and you should too have to eat healthy, get a lot of rest and drink lots of fluid when you fall I'll from a flu, minor nasty cold!

Monday, 29 July 2013

Working My Way Up

I'm finally leaping forward towards my writing career. The upper tabs would lead you to some of my work, and of course to advertise my writing skills, my page is up and running in WritersCafe.org :) The upper tab or the link http://www.writerscafe.org/LostLittleLily/writing/ would send you directly there, I also have a blog up and running there as well, but sadly it says you need to be my friend to read them. If you aren't a member already in the famous website, please do if you want to read the blogs. The other writing's are readable without signing up. My first website published short story Lotus is up and running so I hope y'all like it!

Sunday, 28 July 2013

Church bells

The first thing that comes to mind are happy weddings, a holy day like Sunday gatherings at church, it's a sign of pleasant welcoming. The sound in our ears brings a soothing feeling but in some cases it could be a little frightening. I have a wide range of imagining things which is helpful for my writing career. Things we see in tv or hear in the radio influence us. I'm not used to hearing church bells, and when I do, I think of the time I was young watching some old horror movie or a movie about witchcraft lets say those mid evil times where they'd ring church bell as a sign of calamity like an invasion or such, this is also similar to this tv show I watched about vampires where the people would ring the church bell from the big old church and everyone runs in for their safety. Either way, for me when I hear church bells especially from the old times  I get goosebumps, I'm not a fan of them, it makes me think death is near or a calamity. But of course, that's just me.

Wednesday, 24 July 2013

Writing Career

So I've been boasting in my other blog about wanting to be a writer and pitying over myself that my family doesn't support what I love doing. My mom is indiffrent about it, and my brother and father tells me I won't go anywhere with it. My father notices that I am persistent and see's this by seeing me write everyday, one time I was up late at night and he notices me working my ass off with my writing. I was surprised when he actually smirked saying "What is your story about? Why are you holding onto that so much?" even saying "Let me read it when your done." I was happy when he said that but at the same time I felt embarrassed. I've never let any one read my work before except one of my close friend who read one that was still in the making, she read the first few paragraphs and said it was well written. Some of my other friends read my poems for class and thought it was nice. Although started writing my blogs, I still have a fear of actually publish my works, I am afraid of criticism and still editing the 3 works I've finished but unable to fully focus on them because I am having these ideas that prevent me from sticking to one project. I decided I might create a page to publish my work and post the page link in my blog (top tabs) also I'd post an update in the side bars for upcoming and recent works if you decide to read and love my works.

Yolo

Recently I've been feeling lazy and tired, must be because of summer fever and my summer lifestyle. I'm not able to do some exercise such as the usual simple morning run to kick start the morning or eating a healthy meal and having a healthy sleeping habit. I usually get to bed by 11 or 12 and mostly write and indulge myself with a day filled with fun and games. My eating schedule is way off as well, I have an early brunch and don't eat lunch or dinner until 4 pm. Some side snacks which are really unhealthy. Maybe this triggered this lazy feeling. But it can't be helped that's the way I am.  When schools back I'll be even more busy so I'm living my life while it's still summer vacation. Coz Yolo. (you only live once)

Tuesday, 23 July 2013

The Fun Starts

My summers been going well, boring and flying by so fast, spending my day writing my recent books and of course chatting online. Recently I've been feeling my friends and I are being separated by a huge gap, barely talking and attending to our own lives, well how can we meet I thought, it was summer, we had our own lives other than school and I pretty much miss them. Some of my friends came back a few weeks ago from Japan. And one of them asked to meet up this weekend. The post was on Facebook for a few days and everyone wasn't taking it seriously, it was supposed to be cancelled like the other plans we made but didn't work. Today, the post came up it was decided we'd go to McDonald's this Saturday, the entire group has to be there, the suggester said, I had a feeling that they weren't telling us something, and of course I was right, they labeled it as a "surprise" which is making me feel psyched to go. I'm guessing they had some souvenirs they brought from Japan, but of course that is only a guess, it could be something else. So the whole day was dedicated to planning the event out, and I was actually the one who made sure everyone was going my messaging and texting every one of them. I was so excited and I really wanted them to go, I was missing them and now that the opportunity comes, I won't let it pass without making the best memories with my second family.

Friday, 19 July 2013

Annoyed

Ok so me and my bro are like cats and dogs there is never a day when we don't scream our heads out. Its rare to see us getting along which is one I always wish to happen but it just doesn't. I pissed him off so he doesn't want to let me borrow his charger and he is only nice when he needs something from me. What a jerk. I'm so annoyed coz he is an inconsiderate bastard :'(

Thursday, 18 July 2013

Chicken pox

How does that feel like? I seriously don't know... I thought I never had it, but mum said I did when I was really young. The topic came up and some vaccinations are made to prevent it. Chicken pox are really scary so my teacher say, and I agree it's true. Imagine what it was like in the ancient times when small pox, similar to chicken pox were to cause an outbreak! Small pox was a deadly disease back in the mid evil times in Europe when that came from trade ships that had infected rats and dead bodies that were not sanitized because sanitation didn't exist back then. Imagine a red pimple like a rash covering your body and with in days you die due to the inconvenience of this disease. I wouldn't want to risk it! Thus that triggered my cleanliness mode and thank goodness I'm immune to chicken pox now. 

Tuesday, 16 July 2013

Glucagon the wonder hormone

Okay so I was reading this article about a hormone we all have called glucagon. Credits to the scientists and authors who discovered and wrote about it for me to be enlighten and to enlighten you as well. Glucagon is a weight lost hormone and I one article stated that "imagine PACMAN circling your waist line and gobbling all that fat!" sounds too good to be true right? Glucagon is the counterpart of insulin where instead of sugar is turned into fat, fat is turned into sugar. Eating too much sugar makes glucagon production slower because it is release 6 hours after a meal. Not only sugar but continuous eating of a certain food! Yes, I know how hard it is to lose that bad habit of sweets and who can't deny food? Obesity is a really scary thing and although I'm not overweight I have to watch my weight because my family history has a high chance of me inheriting diabetes. I'm active in school but now that it's summer i'm afraid of gaining weight so as much as possible I exercise. Even a simple movement in the house like light cleaning is enough to assure myself in not gaining that much of a weight. Now back to Glucagon. Since glucagon helps us loose weight, how do we increase the chances of loosing weight using this wonderful hormone? Like I said it is produced or released 6 hours after a meal, there are some ways to increase this by eating foods with protein, like fish or nuts. A simple snack or a small meal containing protein is a good start to this. Start with a small or medium meal or snack of protein early in the morning an hour later go and exercise, glucagon would surely frenzy in your body during those hours. Exercise is in fact another way to help glucagon, moving gets the fire burning! The more your heart race the chances you are staying healthy and fit and easily loose weight. Add some spice in your life with some chilly pepper to boost your metabolism which is another to help loose weight and eat leafy green veggies as another helpful energy together with protein. Have a safe and healthy lifestyle everyone!

Sunday, 14 July 2013

Asian Music

For some reason I'm in love with Asian Songs... Agree? You may not understand it but their style and taste of music is awesome! Japanese rock/pop are the best, Korean pop/ballad/love songs are so lovable and so as Chinese. How they make heavy metal sound less irritating is just so amazing! I'm not a fan of heavy metal or rock but listening to the song from Anime made me fell in love with them! 

Like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iuQeuYAjzIM

YOKAN  song by a Japanese Rock Band called Heidi.

Although I'm not an expert in music, correct me if I'm right this "heavy metal", "rock" or "pop" genre song twists the heavy instrumental and makes it less annoying, at least for me. 

I also love Asian theme songs from their dramas, again it's less annoying. Usually if I here a typical theme song from a drama I'd feel bored, but Asians, sorry for the bias, enchant us with their music! Even if we don't understand it, we are tempted to put it on replay and sing along stumbling on the lyrics and just humming it for the sake of our content! 

Love the PV link?

Try others I recommend by various artists:

Heidi's other theme song from Kaichou Wa Maid Sama (same place the theme song was used) Muggen Loop is the best, same material and less annoying instrumental.
Naruto Themes: Nico Touches Walls, Superbeaver... (there are more, if you are familiar with the Naruto series you would love some of its open and closing themes
SS501 - a Korean band, their instrumental and material are awesome try checking out "blank bet" "someday" 
T-Max - another Korean band who sand most themes in Boys over flowers with an F4 special "bang bang boom" -my fave
If you are looking for ballads or pop I recommend another fave, the Madarin or Chinese boy band F4 "Seasons of Fireworks" "can't help falling in love" 
And meteor garden OST's by Harlem Yu

Guang Liang the best balladeer "yong qi" "Yan Ho" and much much more!

Wednesday, 3 July 2013

Twitter

My friend got me addicted to twitter last year during Christmas break. I've been fretting whether to make a twitter account for my blog as well... I really don't know right now if I should for my other blog "to love and inspire" anyhow who has a twitter account and wants a followback? Add me so I can add you back @j9_perez or comment your username so I can instantly follow you back :) also please follow @embjrxp coz its his bday today. .-. ^___^ Just being me 150 characters at a time and dozens of tweets a day ;)

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

The talk

Teenage years... Sometimes it sucks. you get pimples due to puberty, you got an emotional roller coaster ride kind of moods. You've got to deal with life no matter what life takes you be it bad or good. So during dinner my bro asked who was the guy who dropped my dad my dad said his name was... And he started talking about his son being a bad boy who skips school and my dad said don't copy people like that. Then he suddenly changes the topic to couples getting so young these days and doing things, and all eyes were on my bro who obviously revealed that he had a girlfriend long time ago. Living in a Filipino family you'd have over protective parents who don't have shame talking about these things. It was kind of awkward especially since We were eating. they were talking a of us being so young and we should only be friends and dont go far. I'm like just laughing because my bro was blushing at the total embarrassment the Convo was heading. I'm so lucky I'm single. And I just love seeing my annoying bro tortured.

Sunday, 30 June 2013

The secret diary

Writing is my passion so it's a must to write everything that comes to mind even in a journal or diary. Probably the influence of my past LA teachers where we have to write a journal of a given topic and a diary where we speak our mind through words. Remembering what my friend's art teacher said when I payed a visit, she said that writing is also a form of art. To make your ideas flexible you must write it down through words and describe it. Waking up in the morning and writing something to keep the fire burning and also helping yourself sharpen your memory (good way to remember your dreams if you even write it down for remembrance). Lately I have become busy due to my blogs and my current book ideas, in my past post I've even posted a link of my summary and questions for a idea I had trouble with. Ideas just surges in and I am unable to accommodate the others that are in stand by and waiting for me to catch up in. I've been writing since I was 15 with no specific direction in life at first, now I'm aiming for a specific goal. Anyhow, back to the topic. Since I'm really busy I can't even update the secret diary app I had installed in my iPod. It's really unfair that it's password protected as it gives the feel of a real diary, plus you don't have to worry of anyone reading it. It's faster to type and easy to take out for browsing. Weeks ago, my brother found out I had the app and was persisted in opening it. I on the other hand, thought to myself "it wouldn't be a secret if you opened it right?" it's private and even if I don't update it daily it's my property with a special meaning. My thoughts feelings even ideas are written in it, it would be pointless of me writing it especially if I didn't want others to read it right?

Saturday, 29 June 2013

Just for fun...

Okay so one of my friend posted this on FB. Just for fun I wanna try it out with you guys! Comment yours or say anything you like :)
A- available: yes?
B- birthday: 11/08/96
C- crush on: Pat...
D- drink you last had: water of course :p
E- easiest person to talk to: grace and Meagan 
F- favorite song: she will be loved
G- grossest memory: idk :(
H- hometown: Saipan
I- in love with: pat... 
J- jealous of...: my bro
K- killed Someone: sure...
L- longest friendship: tiffany
M- middle name: del Rosario
N- number of siblings: 6
O- one wish: a life where I could live life without regrets.
P- person you called last: Mom <3
Q- question you were always asked: what do you want to be when you grow up? (obviously I know already)
R- reasons to smile: knowing YOU are reading this. Knowing that everything would be alright and that there would be a brighter day 
S- song you last sang: she will be loved
T- time you woke up: 9 a.m.
U- usual time you go to bed: 12 am
V- violent moment you had: when I was fighting w/ bro
W- worst habit: repeating words especially 'like'
X- # of X-rays you had: never had never will.
Y- last kiss: wanna be my first :3 jokes
Z- zodiac sign: Scorpio-rat

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Friday, 28 June 2013

Gaming time help?

Okay so I'm currently playing this harvest moon game called: Rune Factory 3: a fantasy harvest moon (way to go in revolutionize harvest moon since its traditionally a farming game only and now it's a monster quest role playing game with actual quests instead of heart events etc.) it gets better once you play it. I was wondering, for those who played it or have knowledge about the game, what does it mean if your befriended pet monster who follows you around has a dialogue with a treasure chest above its head mean? When I tried to talk to it nothing happens. And it disappears when I go inside my home and go back out. I reload the saved game or state and when I teleport to the outside of my house and while walking to the stairs or bridge it shows up, but you can't get it is it telling me something? Or did anyone have this experience? Picture below: 

It's a wooly monster (named it kyo) and it has a blinking/moving dialogue circle with a treasure chest. Comments pls!!! 

The type of help

I watched this show and this sparked the idea of this post. "we always ask for help from others but we aren't even capable of helping in return?" sounds familiar? How many times had you asked someone for help? Did they help you? If they did, did they ask for something in return? Did you even help them when they are in need? I asked myself this and most of the time if someone helped me I try my best to help them with the best I can because I was thought to give back blessings, and helping to me comes naturally in my personality. 

We always ask for help but why when that person needs our help the most we can't seem to give them the help they deserve. Are we greedy? Or are we just not feeling like Mr. nice guy trying to keep a pure reputation and intention. Before we ask for help did we even ask ourselves a question like "oh thank god this person helped me, but does this person need help in return? Would this person ask for something in return? We never thought about that person's feeling and what situation they are in.

For example, in the same show the kid was complaining that he is in a pinch because he has a lot of homework after being absent for a long time. His teacher asked his classmate who was really smart to help him pick up the pace from when he was absent. The student agreed but in actuality he didn't want to because he has other problems. The kid talking to the priest said that he was greedy and that he has other problems too. The priest said that they were the same, he can't help him because he has problems to take care of, and if he wants help then he has to help him so he in return can help him. 

To put it short "how can you accept help from others when you yourself isn't ready to help in return." things aren't always free in life. You can't always expect people to help you, we have other things to attend to and that's just that. Compromise and understanding plays a huge role don't forget that!

Wednesday, 26 June 2013

Scrolling on...

Scrolling in your newsfeed with things that interest your eye could make you stay on that computer for hours commenting, liking and just admiring as you see them appear and disappear In your screen. As in my recent post, sorry for those who wouldn't relate, I posted a pic from my newsfeed that caught my eye. I'm a k-drama fan so... Anyhow, since I'm at the mode of newsfeed scrolling and such in the social media I had gathered stuff that definitely interest me. After this you'd definitely want to eat something :) 
So on we go...
Choco deliciousness. I seriously went hungry after seeing this and I just ate dinner! I wanna eat this kisses covered chocolate cake heavenly delight. Probably a sweet tooth since its been long since I haven't eaten sweets. I'm so busy and since dad can't eat them the whole family suffers. And back to the discussion. This Choco delight would make your mouth water, make you crave and want it badly. The bursting deliciousness and the heavenly "must have it" feeling. Who wants it? I know I do!

Radiating in hotness :3

I seriously can't get enough of this guy. From the 4 Korean dramas I watched with him playing a main role I'm like drooling every time I see him. Well I'm not drooling actually, but you would understand I'm a die hard fan over guys like him. I mean come on who isn't? If you are a girl like me you'd understand he is the perfect dream guy! He has a dreamy body and with that killer smile and angelic good boy face?! I'm okay with not having a bf just for him. The quiet but super hunky guy is so ahhh! This morning as soon as I woke up I went online on Fb to check my newsfeed and well others in it and the first thing I see is this pic! Immediate share on my wall. My female friends of course agree and likes the picture as well! His name is Kim Hyun Joong. I first fell in love with him in Boys over flowers as the quiet 'austic' but seriously hot good boy but deep inside bad boy type. Followed by his other Playful Kisses were he is even more hotter with a personality of arrogant smart ass but still hot personality. He is a singer and in a band called SS501. And boy can he sing! The total hearthrob! 

Monday, 24 June 2013

I despise you...

I usually don't hate people, because I have an easy going personality. I'm nice if your nice. But if you piss me off and mess with my family and friends you've never seen hell yet. I can be patient but there is a limit to that. I've gone through worst times maybe they are not as bad as you guys out there but there is a dead limit to my kindness as well. Ever since I was young my family had been betrayed over and over by people we thought we could call friends... Screw them. My dad said after they get what they want they'll forget about friendship and believe in the saying "never trust anyone but yourself or family". My family used to be in the middle not too poor, not too rich when I was young my dad worked and co-owned a Chinese Internet shop. We get free Internet, and because he was popular his "friends" tagged along with him just for the luxury. But nothing lasts, when my dads employer left and eventually the Internet shop had to be closed his friends left as well. We hadn't seen them in a long time until what? When I'm 14? That was when they completely forgot about us and was only nice because we were neighbors. It was troublesome because they were annoying and stubborn. They were only nice for a month or two. They never invited my dad or family to parties after we moved back in and out of the neighborhood and since my dad is practically useless now that he couldn't see, it's more of pity and to them it was pretty much useless to hang around him anymore. The more I despise useless people who use you. Also back when I was young, there was this guy who my parents helped. We treated him like family and he back stabs us. He ran away and left us troubled for a mistake he created and should have been thankful because we tool the downfall. We moved to many homes unable to pay our rent. Besides the problems in my household my fathers words turned out to be true, growing up since I was smart I am used a lot for help in their math homework's, that was the common case people considered me as friends until the end of junior high. I gained real friends in high school but problems never seemed to leave yet. Currently my group are facing a hate feeling with one another and I'm one of those who are in the middle. I have to walk around listening to both sides talking behind their backs. I have to carry this burden on my shoulder hoping they'd get along quick. My father had his 2nd stroke which led to all sorts of sickness including his currents glaucoma and diabetes which blinded his eye sight. Despite this he still works to feed us because my mom quit her job because her employer doesn't pay them and her boss goes to poker. My dad is looked down upon because he looks like an idiot half blind especially when he trips. I want to defend him at times that he is being laughed at but that's when I'm at school and he's at work. No one consider his hard work as admirable since he is just a technician but he's a hell of a lot better of a technician than they knew, he was even a electrian he does all sorts of stuff if he can just to help us. It's just that faith always brought him to the wrong jobs because he had no college experience. Unlike the people he had worked with, he works with them despite their uselessness. He knows he is being played with and laughed at behind his back but he proves to be a better person than those who act like a teachers pet acting all cool when their boss is around and taking all the credit when my dad was actually the one who did it. I'm not heroizing my dad and making him look pitiful because this is what I saw first hand as his daughter. I know that my dad is hard working and I've seen his lazy ass workmates belittle him. As much as I want to hurt all of them I'm powerless right now. I dreamed of being something admirable like be a lawyer to help people like my father get justice. And as much as I want to let all of those who hurt my family, my parents said committing crimes was bad and that they'd get their day someday. I wanted to be the hardworking person who no one would laugh at and instead looking up at, admire and like me for being me not because I was smart or hardworking the true and pure kindness that should have been given to not only me but my family.

Sunday, 23 June 2013

So hawwt

For some reason Anime Characters are too good to be true that they make reality seem boring and you wish that anime heartthrob existed. I mean common who wouldn't drool and fan girl over Usui Takumi, Otoya Render, Tomoe (Kamisama Hajimemashita), Kakashi, Sasuke, Faster than a Kiss's legendary Ma-kun and his hot younger bro, and the other hot guys who fought over Fumino, Hinta from Kaichou Wa Maid Sama, and so much more. They make the leading men so perfect they make the real guys next to us less appealing. Like this:
or this... seriously imagine him in your room staring at you saying: "Let's sleep together"
Oh my gawd... why can't he be real! #Fangirling

Saturday, 22 June 2013

#NowPlaying

When I'm not busy volunteering at the library to finish my service learning hours, I'm either writing short stories or PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. Yup, it's childish especially since I'm 16. It can't be helped. Even a girl would be bored on a Saturday in it's early summer. Lately I'm frustrated that the latest harvest moon game: "Harvest Moon 3DS: A new beginning" Virtual Rom for PC isn't out for download yet (free of charge) as much as I want to buy the real thing, I can't since I'm still in school and my parents pay isn't enough to sustain our daily living. But if I do get a chance I'd buy all of the Harvest Moon Series. Currently playing Rune Factory 3: A harvest Moon Fantasy, and I really wish there is a girl version for this :( I hadn't got past the part to introduce myself to everyone and talk to Shara after request. All in all other than that I also like to play RPG games like Dragon Fable, etc.

Best friends




I'm pumped up to show off my friends because I'm proud them and I really miss them. They can be annoying at times and despite the problems we face, we fight and strive together as a whole. I love them as a second family, they thought me many things and they were the first people I became true to myself. They are the only people I could express my feelings to and they are the craziest and most inspiring people I've met. Now that its summer I can't stop thinking about them and the more I look at these pics I even feel even more sad. I'd laugh at what had happened during that trip and the other funny moments we had while taking these pics :) Keep smiling and have a wonderful summer guys!

Friday, 21 June 2013

Abscence makes the heart grow fonder: Regretful feelings

Experienced it a lot. I think I was cursed to not love someone. The guy's I like or the guys who'd like me would feel a sense of rejection even if I didn't mean it. I seriously hate myself. Like in Elementary, I had this bestfriend, he was my first guy friend and we were really close. Seeing the gap for more than 10 years I'm seriously sad. He's a good guy, if I hadn't said those harsh words maybe there would have been something special. It's just that, that time I was young and I preferred being with my friend girls, he didn't really had guy friends at that time so he'd always tag along. I wasn't in the best of mood either, so after that day he changed completely. A few years later, I met him and he thanked me for pushing him away, it gave him a new outlook and gained more guy friends. I regretted it, because like the saying I missed him. Another was a close friend of mine. He's Asian and he is hated for being straight up and having a bad mouth. I don't mind his jokes because we are used to teasing each other, we are really comfortable around each other. I liked someone else at that time and didn't noticed, well actually I thought he was joking when he said he liked me, he always said he liked others so to me it was nothing, but it did caught me off guard since one of my friend witnessed it. I didn't say I liked him too... I wasn't the reason he drifted apart though, his jokes were mean to the point he was kicked off from our group because he made my friend cry, I still talk to him but he has his own friends now and maybe another girl he likes, but he was one of the guys who I actually had feelings for and was late to realize it. I was scared that it was a joke and didn't tell him my true feelings, now he is completely gone and we barely talk to each other. He was also the first guy besides my brother or younger cousins whom I hugged. I don't even hug my other guy friends. I'm A fool in love, I was cursed to give the wrong signs and realize my feelings until later.

Thursday, 20 June 2013

Schools Out Baby!

Just Chillin' at the beach after a long school year and as a reward for the hard work our club did this year. We are finally gonna be Juniors! And I got a major sun burn! This past few days my Facebook and twitter was like woah! Sharing pics of our bonding, exchanging messages and etc. Best group day ever and best pic ever! Its funny how we had struggles but made this far. Its also funny that we hadn't seen all of the 100 pics we had that day, LOL. Seriously who had the last camera with our confessions? Schools out, skipped school and hang out Such a good way to end a school year and welcome summer. Happy summer and stay safe!

Wednesday, 19 June 2013

Welcoming the Summer Seasons

Just one more day until school is finally over! After all the hard work this year, we had finally made it to the next level. We gained to experience and friends. Overcame burdens in our way, and strengten our bonds. Since this year, we had remained humble and worked hard for our school's Japanese Club, a school year ender we planned was a pool party in World Resort, Saipan. Which was a 10 minute walk from our school. It took place after school 12:30 pm and ended at 5 pm. I'm not a good swimmer but the memories we had was a blast. A good way to welcome summer since, it's pretty hot and the usual ice breaker to cool off is a trip at the beach or should I say pool. There was a open beach too and yes even when we swam in chlorinated cold pool water, we also swam in the salty sea! We photobombed pictures and had a confession in a hotspa/jaccuzi (LOL!) it was funny that when we were supposed to be serious during the confession we were actually laughing. Our Club President and fellow friend said it was a good way to strengthen our friendship and work out our flaws as a whole. I know I will regret it later (considering my major sunburn and foot cramps.) But in the end it was one hell of a day! Totally loved it! <3

Monday, 17 June 2013

Ghostly experience or just...

Ever had a ghost experience? Or just something out of the ordinary? Well I wouldn't consider it as a ghost experience but you decide... While before and while i'm writing this, for some reason my TV's haunted. (Just wanted to assume its haunted) Since my dad is cheap to get a better TV he gets a TV from his work mate, a really old Japanese TV with confusing buttons. Really old school. We had it for a year and we have no problem except the limited channel since it's really old. It was working perfectly fine until for some weird reason after my dad got mad/screamed outside the TV's acting up. (Don't know how that is related to anything, it's just a joke theory my mom came up with, she's not superstitious and it's a joke.) It's getting annoying since we are trying to watch and every time the volume goes up really high. (It's old so it has no remote control and you manually push the button so no one could control it, obviously)... I have the urge to blow that thing up...

Sunday, 16 June 2013

Fashion senses

It's annoying how I can't survive a day without being criticized by the fashion police a.k.a. Mom. Seriously why can't I dress my age? All my clothes have to be approved and if I do wear something there is no escape from her. When I wear a dress, she'd expect me to be more casual and look older than I really am. When I wear something in my generation she along with my father would tell me I look ghetto or like a Tom. parents can be so annoying at times...

Annoyed

Fathers should be a happy day and a bonding with your father. I was seriously annoyed the whole day. He gets drunk in the party, he drinks another can when he gets home and make me run around the house giving him useless stuff. I mean seriously why bother eating things if you'll throw it up later? I tried to keep my temper today but another word would surely make this bomb explode. 

Monday, 10 June 2013

public speaking

We had our persuasive speech today. I got the confidence at first until i screwed it up in the end, got nervous at the last minute. But it was fun though. I hate speaking in public, makes me stutter, shake and again nervous. Good luck on all you public speakers and may you have the courage to speak up and make your voice be heard

personal appearance

Sorry for not posting daily :) Yesterday, a holy day to celebrate Jesus's birth mom kept bothering me and critcizing my clothes. In my head i'm like "shut up you're not the one wearing it" and "so what if they judge me, they can judge all they want but its my life not there's". Everything has to be perfect, if mom sees a flaw she'd totally be a mood wrecker. Anyone with a mom like that? It's just annoying.

Saturday, 8 June 2013

Personality

Sometimes I hate my personality and sometime's I'm glad I turned out this way. I'm not usually the type who'd engage in a convo with people especially if I am not really close to them, let's just say I feel awkward talking to a complete stranger out of fear that they'd judge me. It's normal, yeah but I hate it, sometimes I can't socialize really well because it just feels awkward. I'm a complete opposite when compared to my bro who is outgoing and easily to engage in conversations. I personally don't go deep in friendships/relationships because it's usually troublesome like now, I have friends who can't get along and sometimes it's troublesome to counsel them and be the middle person in the situation. Lately my friends are heated up with this war of love hate relationship and as the middle person i'm dragged into it, like I said troublesome. When it comes to friends I'm a completely different person from your first impression, I'm crazy and easy going. If I was shy at first you'd be shock finding me bounce around changing ever so suddenly. But giving trust and friendship isn't easy for me so that's why I have a dual personality. I can also be the sweet, shy, innocent normal person but once I'm in my friend zone turf I'm really talkative and not ashamed. There are times that I'll be really nice and there are times when I won't talk at all signalling those who do to back away before they get hurt. (Usually at times when i'm in a bad mood but it's rare) The good thing about my personality is that I can lend a hand and ear for anyone especially my friend in need. I'm like a counselor which is fun but kind of irritating in some circumstances. But at times if I need time to think or if i'm just really pissed off I stay quiet and distance myself from the crowd. I hate drama especially ones with friends who make a fuss over small things so having my own world could be useful at times.

Hobby

Thank's to my anime loving classmate's I got addicted to Anime and Manga aside from Korean Drama. Spent the whole day finishing the series called "Faster Than A Kiss" a manga about a student and teacher relationship that changes in a flash and begins living together as an instant married couple. While both developing feelings and getting comfortable with the new married life, the two cute couple faces struggles while keeping their relationship a secret. I just love Fumino's little brother the most, he is so cute!!! While reading it I was activating fangirling mode and had this expressionless look in my face wanting to finish it until the end. By the last arc all the good stuff just rolls in and ends beautifully, although I was disappointed that it turned out that way (hoping for more) but at least it wasnt obscene for a teenager like me to read. It's cute and a must read manga, I also recommend the ongoing manga Kaichou Wa Maid Sama and the ended series of Papa to Mama Hajimemashita. Thank God I had anime addicted friends :)

Friday, 7 June 2013

Goodbye's

Today is the last day for the seniors of our school. It's quite sad to see them go. This morning the seniors had fired up their car engines making a ruckus just for the sake of "living life to the fullest" and "live like we're young" in front of the lower class men and of course cherish their last memories before they graduate. We made the most out of this day today in JROTC, our senior leadership had passed the thrown to their successors and gave their last speech before finally moving on. Our Command Sergeant Major told us we were the number one company and he loved us "I was born in bravo i'll die in bravo." Bravo pride. He told us that despite the stress we made through the year and cherished precious memories. We had group hugs and despite the drama he managed to joke. He originally planned to give us ice cream as a good bye gift but he had his check late. Instead he sang for us "She will be loved" by Maroon 5. It was funny because he our Company commander had to sing to us as well but she didn't want to, unfortunately. Instead she gave us a big speech which almost made every one of us cry. In the end of the day after eating the party food we all chipped in, we all had a group hug. It's sad to see them go since they were like family while we were in JROTC, once a person is affected the whole company is affected. If someone dies everyone dies together, we charge with flying colors because that is how we roll. It's just so hard to say goodbye, and it's not easy to say it because those who are leaving are those who had been there for you and treated you like family despite hardships and accomplishments.

Thursday, 6 June 2013

Teen Pregnancy

In my school it's normal to see girl's who are obviously pregnant. The first thing that comes to mind when I see that is, "I wonder if their parent's accepted it" or "They're probably having a hard time..." usually being a young mom at an early age for some cultures would be embarrasing and most of the times the parents cant accept it. But in my school it's just shocking to see that it's widely accepted, usually you'd see someone talking about her calling her a slut or someone would pity them and such. I saw a person I've known since elementary today, to my surprise she was pregnant. I was shocked because seeing other girls who were didnt surprise me as much. Last semester she was in JROTC and doing those stuff while in there was not tolerated, so it must have happened less than 5 months ago. I didn't really knew much about her after not seeing her for months and now she's suddenly... I'm not bad mouthing anybody because in actually I admire them because my mom was a young mother. It's just so sad to see them throw away their education, but at the same time I'm happy because despite their condition they are going to school and well no one is judging it and they are actually give them a chance to go to school despite the humiliation it may cause
So psyched in writing, feeling pumped up today :) I've been stressed out the whole day and my only stress reliever was writing, of course i was stressed writing my essay which is due tomorrow (wish me luck!) but now I'm finally done, awesomeness! I posted it in my other blog here is the link feel free to read it and comment :) http://toloveandinspire.blogspot.com/2013/06/persuasive-essay-stop-domestic-violence.html While I'm at it, I was organizing my service learning papers and found out I had to write a 1 page reflection about it (I was stressed out for a moment there) now I'm back on posting on my blog. Since today is dedicated to school work, I thought of trying to post it here as well, just for feedback as well as in honor for the people who inspired me to write it. Feel free to comment on tips on how to improve it or just say whatever you like about it.

SERVICE LEARNING REFLECTION

During the time I was volunteering in Joeten Kiyu Library I had learned many things. I had met new people faced some troubles and overcame those troubles along the way and gain new knowledge under my supervisors and colleagues care. Originally, I was supposed to start May 7th this year, but due to unexpected circumstances my schedule was pushed back one week. Because of this, I preserved to work even harder. My fellow volunteers had originally set our end of volunteer before the end of July but it looks like we would be finished one month early. Before the end of the school year, I had worked four hours each day while juggling with projects and studying for exams. As time fly by I grew fond of my job and began to hate the fact that I’d have to leave the job I had come to love. My first dream job back in elementary was to be a librarian, over time it changed to becoming a writer, two years before my graduation I had never expected to work closely to my original dream job. Although it is not worth talking highly, it is an honor to serve the public library and aide my hardworking senior supervisors. Rain or Shine, I had preserve in trying to come in on time during my required schedule, walking from school to the library just for the sake of doing what I had come to love. Although this was not the first place I had experience working, I had learned so much more. I had learned how to be patient with my colleagues and control my anger, I had learned how to organize and aid customers/local visitors, I learned how to become responsible and control my time management. I had exercised my social skills as well as learned customer care. While on this job, it gave me the opportunity to exercise my reading skills. I’d laugh at the times when I was a newbie walking around not knowing where all the books are supposed to be placed, when someone asks me where the series of their preference was I was embarrassed to tell them because I had not known where it was. This job had taught me how to become bold and preserve.

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone"

Pitch Perfect never gets old, especially when watching it over and over again. We watched it again today since we had free time after our SBA testing :) Becka's cup song inspired me to dedicate this post to it. Today my friends acted like counselors which was fun (3 girls talking about our love lives). My close friend was talking about how she was frustrated over her boyfriend who was a senior and would soon leave her, the other said she liked this guy and told him how she felt but ended up friend zoned/ sister zoned. I on the other hand can't muster up the courage to tell my crush for 3 years I like him. So each of us were giving each other advice's, and out of no where the song came up in my mind. My friend would miss her boyfriend when he graduates, and my other friend's crush would miss her once she is gone but at the same time its funny because he would be leaving and she's not sure if he's coming back. I on the other hand didn't see my crush for the day and I already miss him (LOL). It's a natural instinct for a person to miss a person when they aren't at their presence. For example, this girl liked this guy, the guy however didn't feel the same way at first, when she was gone he finally realizes that he missed her.

Tuesday, 4 June 2013

Independence

My dad once said "We aren't going to be with you guys forever, we'll eventually leave you and you'll have a family of your own. Furthermore, you got to learn how to live by yourself and only depend on your strength and capabilities." It's true, if I want something I have to earn it, I have to get good grades, work hard and play hard. If you don't work hard with your own power and depend on others all the time, how would you live in this world, no one would always be there for you to catch you when you fall and fix your mistakes, it's your problem so deal with it. Independence depends a person's ability and willingness to help themselves and trust in themselves.

Reverse Psychology

When everythings falling into place, that's when you think that the perfect moment suddenly falls apart. I'm so angry that mom didn't do the laundry earlier :( Usually on Tuesdays (PT for JROTC) i'd wear my green blouse [don't ask me why I wear a blouse in a day i'd obviously sweat because i'll just say, that's what I want you got your ways of dressing and I got mine] so anyway, I liked this guy since junior high so basically I liked him or had a crush on him for about 3 years. Last Friday, I had this feeling that he'd been staring at me from across the gym (maybe it was someone else) he hangs out in front of my class because his friend is my classmate, we'd exchange quick glances and look away in the past, he usually doesnt wear any other color and surely he never wears green on a school day -ahem i'm not a stalker. (I'm used to seeing him in dark colors or polo's) so I was shocked that on the day I was supposed to wear my favorite green shirt he wears it. I just hate reverse psychology, when you least expect it, it all surges in and ruining the moment especially at times when you do not wish for attention.

Monday, 3 June 2013

It's not that I can't relate...

My favorite quote of all time by Kakashi Hatake sensei "it's not that i can't relate, it's just that I don't feel the same way". (Naruto Shippuuden - for those who are wondering) I gotta admit I was laughing at the same time wishing I could fist bump him. It's like me saying "it's not that I don't like you alone, it's just that I hate socializing with people like you" I'm not a human hater since I am a human after all, it's just sometimes I just hate people's reasoning behind hatred. Sometimes I thought of myself as a guidance counselor since I always have to listen to people's problems, it's not that I don't like it because I love to listen to people and try to help them with their problems. But the people I can't tolerate are those who talks about others behind others back especially if they are our friends. Well there are some people who I'd agree with when they are reasoning, but most of the time I'd just agree half heartedly just to avoid confusion and conflict. I hate being in the middle of things, so if I you have to make me choose between you or them and vice versa please don't because I don't like taking sides. Since I'm in a diverse group of friends there is no avoiding conflicts. there is this person that I could really relate with and there would be this person who'd want me to agree with them even if its not right. Again, its not that I can't relate its just that I dont feel the same way, maybe that person is annoying but that doesn't mean I'll discriminate that person right? If they want to remove that person from that group don't be upset and be a b**** to someone who feels the same way as the other. Im an easy going person and i'd be friends with anyone so if you have someone you hate dont expect me to hate them as well because you could just be judgmental and you aren't even trying to get to know them. But if that person does have a bad attitude then maybe I'd agree. 

Sunday, 2 June 2013

Watching Anime... You can learn a lot ;)

Recently been watching Naruto Shippuuden. Just can't stand not posting my favorite quotes :) I don't really like quotes but if it's from Naruto, I'll love them. Seriously, you could learn a lot because of the elders.

Pein: If there is justice in vengeance then justice will only breed more vengeance and trigger a cycle of hatred

Naruto: I stand by what I say because that's my ninja way

- Sometimes we have to sacrifice everything we have just to make the people we love happy

Nagato: Out of love sacrifice is born hate is born and we are able to know pain

Jiraya: When ur hurt you learn to Hate when you hurt others ur tormented by guilt

Kakashi: It's not that I can't relate it's just that I dont feel the same way.

Kakashi: If u don't open ur heart others won't open up to you

Do you think that telling a lie is a good thing if telling the truth would gravely affect the person

Chatting

I'm a anti social person AT FIRST. Thanks to my friends, i've become a social media addict and became less anti social (Yay). So I was chatting with my friend in FB, really fun. You can get in touch with your friends around the world, and feel in touch even when you are far away :). I just love the new generation, we are no longer cave men and we can go around the world with just a single click of a button :P

Friday, 31 May 2013

Cursing right now...

I don't know if i'm so unlucky when it comes to my feet. For some reason all of my problems deal with my feet or legs. This morning, I woke up with a burning sensation of a scratch (minor cut) don't even know how I got it, I wore pajama's and long socks last night so there is no way i'd get hurt or cut at all, and as far as i'm concerned I know i didn't hurt myself, obviously my feet is really sensitive don't even know why, get bruises out of nowhere and cuts. To make it worst, I've been standing for 2 hours wearing really tight JROTC shoes so my toes are really killing me right now. Walked 30 minutes back and forth from school to bowling so i'm really tired and to make it worst I think my vain in my left foot is swollen because i dropped something heavy and now it's bumpy, dark green mark like a squished vain (gross). My feet hurts right now, so i'm cussing every time I have to use my feet...

That feeling...

That feeling when you feel like that person hates you and you don't know the reason why. I just get annoyed with the way they look at you, I'm like "I'm not bothering you so don't give me that nasty look" in my head ready to scream it out in their face. It's the same feeling that makes me disappointed like today, high expectations would always lead to disappointment eventually...

Thursday, 30 May 2013

Waking up at the right moment

I'm a heavy sleeper, I cant wake myself up early in the morning for school. Fell asleep an hour ago, and woke up remembering I forgot I was using my Ipod and now its low battery. If I hadn't waken up then I'd end up forgetting to charge it and wont have anything to pass my time with tomorrow. :) Night everyone, I'm going back to sleep now.

NAME

I never valued my name before. It was typical no matter what way you say it be it wrong or right I always knew people were referring to me by just how they said it. It's not special it's common. I was content hearing it in various ways. But hearing it from that one person just made my day, the way that person said it somehow made me happy hearing my name. That feeling when that person actually notices you and hearing that person alone saying your name in his way just makes you happy you didn't care how others said it and only how that person said it because that person was special to you. I loved hearing you saying my name, and that by far was one of my favorite name pronunciation even if some people had said it that way. You alone saying it, is enough. You alone is the only person whom I liked my name being called by.


Wednesday, 29 May 2013

Socks :3

Since I really got sensitive feet it's mandatory for me to wear socks in the night. I kinda like wearing socks in the night than the day, I hate wearing shoes because sweating makes me feel uncomfortable. Since it's cold and the room is air conditioned I don't mind. I just love wearing socks... they're so cute especially when guys think you're cute wearing them. For me socks are my feet's best friend, since I hate wearing open toe shoes it also keeps my prizes baby cute feet it's original color (since I was born a white baby, but since I go out in the sun a lot I have a major tan issue) it helps hide my feet out in the ultraviolet waves. Socks/Stockings are fun to play with, since i'm in an island, a dot in the map we barely experience snow, and unlike the states or Japan for example we don't wear uniform, which sucks coz I really want to wear school girl uniforms I just love seeing high ankle socks. Cute socks are awesome too, brings out the innocent side of girls like me. A guy commented once that my hello kitty socks were cute. Hehe.

Growing Pains & Foot Cramps

Ever experienced Growing Pains? Foot Cramps? Experienced it for 2 nights now... When I was young I used to wake up in the middle of the night crying because my leg/foot hurts. The only one who could make it go away was mom and dad, the power of love <3. It's been years since I had Growing pains (besides foot cramps after not exercising for a long time) not fun especially since it keeps me up late and disturbing my peaceful sleep. I missed it when mom and dad would touch it and make it disappear like magic, last night wasn't one of my lucky ones since "I'm a big kid now" (laughing at that jingle) and massaging it myself wasn't even helping at all. After curling up and sobbing myself to sleep I eventually fell asleep and forgot about that pain. Now I got foot cramps :( Stupid sensitive feet. My feet aren't used to cold places so it cramps up a lot unless I wear socks or wrap a blanket around it at night. Foot pains can really be a pain, cant let you sleep in the night... how bothersome.