The secret diary

Writing is my passion so it's a must to write everything that comes to mind even in a journal or diary. Probably the influence of my past LA teachers where we have to write a journal of a given topic and a diary where we speak our mind through words. Remembering what my friend's art teacher said when I payed a visit, she said that writing is also a form of art. To make your ideas flexible you must write it down through words and describe it. Waking up in the morning and writing something to keep the fire burning and also helping yourself sharpen your memory (good way to remember your dreams if you even write it down for remembrance). Lately I have become busy due to my blogs and my current book ideas, in my past post I've even posted a link of my summary and questions for a idea I had trouble with. Ideas just surges in and I am unable to accommodate the others that are in stand by and waiting for me to catch up in. I've been writing since I was 15 with no specific direction in life at first, now I'm aiming for a specific goal. Anyhow, back to the topic. Since I'm really busy I can't even update the secret diary app I had installed in my iPod. It's really unfair that it's password protected as it gives the feel of a real diary, plus you don't have to worry of anyone reading it. It's faster to type and easy to take out for browsing. Weeks ago, my brother found out I had the app and was persisted in opening it. I on the other hand, thought to myself "it wouldn't be a secret if you opened it right?" it's private and even if I don't update it daily it's my property with a special meaning. My thoughts feelings even ideas are written in it, it would be pointless of me writing it especially if I didn't want others to read it right?

Just for fun...

Okay so one of my friend posted this on FB. Just for fun I wanna try it out with you guys! Comment yours or say anything you like :)

A- available: yes?

B- birthday: 11/08/96

C- crush on: Pat...

D- drink you last had: water of course :p

E- easiest person to talk to: grace and Meagan 

F- favorite song: she will be loved

G- grossest memory: idk :(

H- hometown: Saipan

I- in love with: pat... 

J- jealous of...: my bro

K- killed Someone: sure...

L- longest friendship: tiffany

M- middle name: del Rosario

N- number of siblings: 6

O- one wish: a life where I could live life without regrets.

P- person you called last: Mom <3

Q- question you were always asked: what do you want to be when you grow up? (obviously I know already)

R- reasons to smile: knowing YOU are reading this. Knowing that everything would be alright and that there would be a brighter day 

S- song you last sang: she will be loved

T- time you woke up: 9 a.m.

U- usual time you go to bed: 12 am

V- violent moment you had: when I was fighting w/ bro

W- worst habit: repeating words especially 'like'

X- # of X-rays you had: never had never will.

Y- last kiss: wanna be my first :3 jokes

Z- zodiac sign: Scorpio-rat

I did it you should too comment yours!

Gaming time help?

Okay so I'm currently playing this harvest moon game called: Rune Factory 3: a fantasy harvest moon (way to go in revolutionize harvest moon since its traditionally a farming game only and now it's a monster quest role playing game with actual quests instead of heart events etc.) it gets better once you play it. I was wondering, for those who played it or have knowledge about the game, what does it mean if your befriended pet monster who follows you around has a dialogue with a treasure chest above its head mean? When I tried to talk to it nothing happens. And it disappears when I go inside my home and go back out. I reload the saved game or state and when I teleport to the outside of my house and while walking to the stairs or bridge it shows up, but you can't get it is it telling me something? Or did anyone have this experience? Picture below: 

It's a wooly monster (named it kyo) and it has a blinking/moving dialogue circle with a treasure chest. Comments pls!!! 

The type of help

I watched this show and this sparked the idea of this post. "we always ask for help from others but we aren't even capable of helping in return?" sounds familiar? How many times had you asked someone for help? Did they help you? If they did, did they ask for something in return? Did you even help them when they are in need? I asked myself this and most of the time if someone helped me I try my best to help them with the best I can because I was thought to give back blessings, and helping to me comes naturally in my personality. 

We always ask for help but why when that person needs our help the most we can't seem to give them the help they deserve. Are we greedy? Or are we just not feeling like Mr. nice guy trying to keep a pure reputation and intention. Before we ask for help did we even ask ourselves a question like "oh thank god this person helped me, but does this person need help in return? Would this person ask for something in return? We never thought about that person's feeling and what situation they are in.

For example, in the same show the kid was complaining that he is in a pinch because he has a lot of homework after being absent for a long time. His teacher asked his classmate who was really smart to help him pick up the pace from when he was absent. The student agreed but in actuality he didn't want to because he has other problems. The kid talking to the priest said that he was greedy and that he has other problems too. The priest said that they were the same, he can't help him because he has problems to take care of, and if he wants help then he has to help him so he in return can help him. 

To put it short "how can you accept help from others when you yourself isn't ready to help in return." things aren't always free in life. You can't always expect people to help you, we have other things to attend to and that's just that. Compromise and understanding plays a huge role don't forget that!

Scrolling on...

Scrolling in your newsfeed with things that interest your eye could make you stay on that computer for hours commenting, liking and just admiring as you see them appear and disappear In your screen. As in my recent post, sorry for those who wouldn't relate, I posted a pic from my newsfeed that caught my eye. I'm a k-drama fan so... Anyhow, since I'm at the mode of newsfeed scrolling and such in the social media I had gathered stuff that definitely interest me. After this you'd definitely want to eat something :) 

So on we go...

Choco deliciousness. I seriously went hungry after seeing this and I just ate dinner! I wanna eat this kisses covered chocolate cake heavenly delight. Probably a sweet tooth since its been long since I haven't eaten sweets. I'm so busy and since dad can't eat them the whole family suffers. And back to the discussion. This Choco delight would make your mouth water, make you crave and want it badly. The bursting deliciousness and the heavenly "must have it" feeling. Who wants it? I know I do!

Radiating in hotness :3

I seriously can't get enough of this guy. From the 4 Korean dramas I watched with him playing a main role I'm like drooling every time I see him. Well I'm not drooling actually, but you would understand I'm a die hard fan over guys like him. I mean come on who isn't? If you are a girl like me you'd understand he is the perfect dream guy! He has a dreamy body and with that killer smile and angelic good boy face?! I'm okay with not having a bf just for him. The quiet but super hunky guy is so ahhh! This morning as soon as I woke up I went online on Fb to check my newsfeed and well others in it and the first thing I see is this pic! Immediate share on my wall. My female friends of course agree and likes the picture as well! His name is Kim Hyun Joong. I first fell in love with him in Boys over flowers as the quiet 'austic' but seriously hot good boy but deep inside bad boy type. Followed by his other Playful Kisses were he is even more hotter with a personality of arrogant smart ass but still hot personality. He is a singer and in a band called SS501. And boy can he sing! The total hearthrob! 

I despise you...

I usually don't hate people, because I have an easy going personality. I'm nice if your nice. But if you piss me off and mess with my family and friends you've never seen hell yet. I can be patient but there is a limit to that. I've gone through worst times maybe they are not as bad as you guys out there but there is a dead limit to my kindness as well. Ever since I was young my family had been betrayed over and over by people we thought we could call friends... Screw them. My dad said after they get what they want they'll forget about friendship and believe in the saying "never trust anyone but yourself or family". My family used to be in the middle not too poor, not too rich when I was young my dad worked and co-owned a Chinese Internet shop. We get free Internet, and because he was popular his "friends" tagged along with him just for the luxury. But nothing lasts, when my dads employer left and eventually the Internet shop had to be closed his friends left as well. We hadn't seen them in a long time until what? When I'm 14? That was when they completely forgot about us and was only nice because we were neighbors. It was troublesome because they were annoying and stubborn. They were only nice for a month or two. They never invited my dad or family to parties after we moved back in and out of the neighborhood and since my dad is practically useless now that he couldn't see, it's more of pity and to them it was pretty much useless to hang around him anymore. The more I despise useless people who use you. Also back when I was young, there was this guy who my parents helped. We treated him like family and he back stabs us. He ran away and left us troubled for a mistake he created and should have been thankful because we tool the downfall. We moved to many homes unable to pay our rent. Besides the problems in my household my fathers words turned out to be true, growing up since I was smart I am used a lot for help in their math homework's, that was the common case people considered me as friends until the end of junior high. I gained real friends in high school but problems never seemed to leave yet. Currently my group are facing a hate feeling with one another and I'm one of those who are in the middle. I have to walk around listening to both sides talking behind their backs. I have to carry this burden on my shoulder hoping they'd get along quick. My father had his 2nd stroke which led to all sorts of sickness including his currents glaucoma and diabetes which blinded his eye sight. Despite this he still works to feed us because my mom quit her job because her employer doesn't pay them and her boss goes to poker. My dad is looked down upon because he looks like an idiot half blind especially when he trips. I want to defend him at times that he is being laughed at but that's when I'm at school and he's at work. No one consider his hard work as admirable since he is just a technician but he's a hell of a lot better of a technician than they knew, he was even a electrian he does all sorts of stuff if he can just to help us. It's just that faith always brought him to the wrong jobs because he had no college experience. Unlike the people he had worked with, he works with them despite their uselessness. He knows he is being played with and laughed at behind his back but he proves to be a better person than those who act like a teachers pet acting all cool when their boss is around and taking all the credit when my dad was actually the one who did it. I'm not heroizing my dad and making him look pitiful because this is what I saw first hand as his daughter. I know that my dad is hard working and I've seen his lazy ass workmates belittle him. As much as I want to hurt all of them I'm powerless right now. I dreamed of being something admirable like be a lawyer to help people like my father get justice. And as much as I want to let all of those who hurt my family, my parents said committing crimes was bad and that they'd get their day someday. I wanted to be the hardworking person who no one would laugh at and instead looking up at, admire and like me for being me not because I was smart or hardworking the true and pure kindness that should have been given to not only me but my family.

So hawwt

For some reason Anime Characters are too good to be true that they make reality seem boring and you wish that anime heartthrob existed. I mean common who wouldn't drool and fan girl over Usui Takumi, Otoya Render, Tomoe (Kamisama Hajimemashita), Kakashi, Sasuke, Faster than a Kiss's legendary Ma-kun and his hot younger bro, and the other hot guys who fought over Fumino, Hinta from Kaichou Wa Maid Sama, and so much more. They make the leading men so perfect they make the real guys next to us less appealing. Like this:

or this... seriously imagine him in your room staring at you saying: "Let's sleep together"

Oh my gawd... why can't he be real! #Fangirling

#NowPlaying

When I'm not busy volunteering at the library to finish my service learning hours, I'm either writing short stories or PLAYING VIDEO GAMES. Yup, it's childish especially since I'm 16. It can't be helped. Even a girl would be bored on a Saturday in it's early summer. Lately I'm frustrated that the latest harvest moon game: "Harvest Moon 3DS: A new beginning" Virtual Rom for PC isn't out for download yet (free of charge) as much as I want to buy the real thing, I can't since I'm still in school and my parents pay isn't enough to sustain our daily living. But if I do get a chance I'd buy all of the Harvest Moon Series. Currently playing Rune Factory 3: A harvest Moon Fantasy, and I really wish there is a girl version for this :( I hadn't got past the part to introduce myself to everyone and talk to Shara after request. All in all other than that I also like to play RPG games like Dragon Fable, etc.

Best friends

I'm pumped up to show off my friends because I'm proud them and I really miss them. They can be annoying at times and despite the problems we face, we fight and strive together as a whole. I love them as a second family, they thought me many things and they were the first people I became true to myself. They are the only people I could express my feelings to and they are the craziest and most inspiring people I've met. Now that its summer I can't stop thinking about them and the more I look at these pics I even feel even more sad. I'd laugh at what had happened during that trip and the other funny moments we had while taking these pics :) Keep smiling and have a wonderful summer guys!

Abscence makes the heart grow fonder: Regretful feelings

Experienced it a lot. I think I was cursed to not love someone. The guy's I like or the guys who'd like me would feel a sense of rejection even if I didn't mean it. I seriously hate myself. Like in Elementary, I had this bestfriend, he was my first guy friend and we were really close. Seeing the gap for more than 10 years I'm seriously sad. He's a good guy, if I hadn't said those harsh words maybe there would have been something special. It's just that, that time I was young and I preferred being with my friend girls, he didn't really had guy friends at that time so he'd always tag along. I wasn't in the best of mood either, so after that day he changed completely. A few years later, I met him and he thanked me for pushing him away, it gave him a new outlook and gained more guy friends. I regretted it, because like the saying I missed him. Another was a close friend of mine. He's Asian and he is hated for being straight up and having a bad mouth. I don't mind his jokes because we are used to teasing each other, we are really comfortable around each other. I liked someone else at that time and didn't noticed, well actually I thought he was joking when he said he liked me, he always said he liked others so to me it was nothing, but it did caught me off guard since one of my friend witnessed it. I didn't say I liked him too... I wasn't the reason he drifted apart though, his jokes were mean to the point he was kicked off from our group because he made my friend cry, I still talk to him but he has his own friends now and maybe another girl he likes, but he was one of the guys who I actually had feelings for and was late to realize it. I was scared that it was a joke and didn't tell him my true feelings, now he is completely gone and we barely talk to each other. He was also the first guy besides my brother or younger cousins whom I hugged. I don't even hug my other guy friends. I'm A fool in love, I was cursed to give the wrong signs and realize my feelings until later.

Schools Out Baby!

Just Chillin' at the beach after a long school year and as a reward for the hard work our club did this year. We are finally gonna be Juniors! And I got a major sun burn! This past few days my Facebook and twitter was like woah! Sharing pics of our bonding, exchanging messages and etc. Best group day ever and best pic ever! Its funny how we had struggles but made this far. Its also funny that we hadn't seen all of the 100 pics we had that day, LOL. Seriously who had the last camera with our confessions? Schools out, skipped school and hang out Such a good way to end a school year and welcome summer. Happy summer and stay safe!

Welcoming the Summer Seasons

Just one more day until school is finally over! After all the hard work this year, we had finally made it to the next level. We gained to experience and friends. Overcame burdens in our way, and strengten our bonds. Since this year, we had remained humble and worked hard for our school's Japanese Club, a school year ender we planned was a pool party in World Resort, Saipan. Which was a 10 minute walk from our school. It took place after school 12:30 pm and ended at 5 pm. I'm not a good swimmer but the memories we had was a blast. A good way to welcome summer since, it's pretty hot and the usual ice breaker to cool off is a trip at the beach or should I say pool. There was a open beach too and yes even when we swam in chlorinated cold pool water, we also swam in the salty sea! We photobombed pictures and had a confession in a hotspa/jaccuzi (LOL!) it was funny that when we were supposed to be serious during the confession we were actually laughing. Our Club President and fellow friend said it was a good way to strengthen our friendship and work out our flaws as a whole. I know I will regret it later (considering my major sunburn and foot cramps.) But in the end it was one hell of a day! Totally loved it! <3

Ghostly experience or just...

Ever had a ghost experience? Or just something out of the ordinary? Well I wouldn't consider it as a ghost experience but you decide... While before and while i'm writing this, for some reason my TV's haunted. (Just wanted to assume its haunted) Since my dad is cheap to get a better TV he gets a TV from his work mate, a really old Japanese TV with confusing buttons. Really old school. We had it for a year and we have no problem except the limited channel since it's really old. It was working perfectly fine until for some weird reason after my dad got mad/screamed outside the TV's acting up. (Don't know how that is related to anything, it's just a joke theory my mom came up with, she's not superstitious and it's a joke.) It's getting annoying since we are trying to watch and every time the volume goes up really high. (It's old so it has no remote control and you manually push the button so no one could control it, obviously)... I have the urge to blow that thing up...

Fashion senses

It's annoying how I can't survive a day without being criticized by the fashion police a.k.a. Mom. Seriously why can't I dress my age? All my clothes have to be approved and if I do wear something there is no escape from her. When I wear a dress, she'd expect me to be more casual and look older than I really am. When I wear something in my generation she along with my father would tell me I look ghetto or like a Tom. parents can be so annoying at times...

Annoyed

Fathers should be a happy day and a bonding with your father. I was seriously annoyed the whole day. He gets drunk in the party, he drinks another can when he gets home and make me run around the house giving him useless stuff. I mean seriously why bother eating things if you'll throw it up later? I tried to keep my temper today but another word would surely make this bomb explode. 

public speaking

We had our persuasive speech today. I got the confidence at first until i screwed it up in the end, got nervous at the last minute. But it was fun though. I hate speaking in public, makes me stutter, shake and again nervous. Good luck on all you public speakers and may you have the courage to speak up and make your voice be heard

personal appearance

Sorry for not posting daily :) Yesterday, a holy day to celebrate Jesus's birth mom kept bothering me and critcizing my clothes. In my head i'm like "shut up you're not the one wearing it" and "so what if they judge me, they can judge all they want but its my life not there's". Everything has to be perfect, if mom sees a flaw she'd totally be a mood wrecker. Anyone with a mom like that? It's just annoying.

Personality

Sometimes I hate my personality and sometime's I'm glad I turned out this way. I'm not usually the type who'd engage in a convo with people especially if I am not really close to them, let's just say I feel awkward talking to a complete stranger out of fear that they'd judge me. It's normal, yeah but I hate it, sometimes I can't socialize really well because it just feels awkward. I'm a complete opposite when compared to my bro who is outgoing and easily to engage in conversations. I personally don't go deep in friendships/relationships because it's usually troublesome like now, I have friends who can't get along and sometimes it's troublesome to counsel them and be the middle person in the situation. Lately my friends are heated up with this war of love hate relationship and as the middle person i'm dragged into it, like I said troublesome. When it comes to friends I'm a completely different person from your first impression, I'm crazy and easy going. If I was shy at first you'd be shock finding me bounce around changing ever so suddenly. But giving trust and friendship isn't easy for me so that's why I have a dual personality. I can also be the sweet, shy, innocent normal person but once I'm in my friend zone turf I'm really talkative and not ashamed. There are times that I'll be really nice and there are times when I won't talk at all signalling those who do to back away before they get hurt. (Usually at times when i'm in a bad mood but it's rare) The good thing about my personality is that I can lend a hand and ear for anyone especially my friend in need. I'm like a counselor which is fun but kind of irritating in some circumstances. But at times if I need time to think or if i'm just really pissed off I stay quiet and distance myself from the crowd. I hate drama especially ones with friends who make a fuss over small things so having my own world could be useful at times.

Hobby

Thank's to my anime loving classmate's I got addicted to Anime and Manga aside from Korean Drama. Spent the whole day finishing the series called "Faster Than A Kiss" a manga about a student and teacher relationship that changes in a flash and begins living together as an instant married couple. While both developing feelings and getting comfortable with the new married life, the two cute couple faces struggles while keeping their relationship a secret. I just love Fumino's little brother the most, he is so cute!!! While reading it I was activating fangirling mode and had this expressionless look in my face wanting to finish it until the end. By the last arc all the good stuff just rolls in and ends beautifully, although I was disappointed that it turned out that way (hoping for more) but at least it wasnt obscene for a teenager like me to read. It's cute and a must read manga, I also recommend the ongoing manga Kaichou Wa Maid Sama and the ended series of Papa to Mama Hajimemashita. Thank God I had anime addicted friends :)

Goodbye's

Today is the last day for the seniors of our school. It's quite sad to see them go. This morning the seniors had fired up their car engines making a ruckus just for the sake of "living life to the fullest" and "live like we're young" in front of the lower class men and of course cherish their last memories before they graduate. We made the most out of this day today in JROTC, our senior leadership had passed the thrown to their successors and gave their last speech before finally moving on. Our Command Sergeant Major told us we were the number one company and he loved us "I was born in bravo i'll die in bravo." Bravo pride. He told us that despite the stress we made through the year and cherished precious memories. We had group hugs and despite the drama he managed to joke. He originally planned to give us ice cream as a good bye gift but he had his check late. Instead he sang for us "She will be loved" by Maroon 5. It was funny because he our Company commander had to sing to us as well but she didn't want to, unfortunately. Instead she gave us a big speech which almost made every one of us cry. In the end of the day after eating the party food we all chipped in, we all had a group hug. It's sad to see them go since they were like family while we were in JROTC, once a person is affected the whole company is affected. If someone dies everyone dies together, we charge with flying colors because that is how we roll. It's just so hard to say goodbye, and it's not easy to say it because those who are leaving are those who had been there for you and treated you like family despite hardships and accomplishments.

Teen Pregnancy

In my school it's normal to see girl's who are obviously pregnant. The first thing that comes to mind when I see that is, "I wonder if their parent's accepted it" or "They're probably having a hard time..." usually being a young mom at an early age for some cultures would be embarrasing and most of the times the parents cant accept it. But in my school it's just shocking to see that it's widely accepted, usually you'd see someone talking about her calling her a slut or someone would pity them and such. I saw a person I've known since elementary today, to my surprise she was pregnant. I was shocked because seeing other girls who were didnt surprise me as much. Last semester she was in JROTC and doing those stuff while in there was not tolerated, so it must have happened less than 5 months ago. I didn't really knew much about her after not seeing her for months and now she's suddenly... I'm not bad mouthing anybody because in actually I admire them because my mom was a young mother. It's just so sad to see them throw away their education, but at the same time I'm happy because despite their condition they are going to school and well no one is judging it and they are actually give them a chance to go to school despite the humiliation it may cause

So psyched in writing, feeling pumped up today :) I've been stressed out the whole day and my only stress reliever was writing, of course i was stressed writing my essay which is due tomorrow (wish me luck!) but now I'm finally done, awesomeness! I posted it in my other blog here is the link feel free to read it and comment :) http://toloveandinspire.blogspot.com/2013/06/persuasive-essay-stop-domestic-violence.html While I'm at it, I was organizing my service learning papers and found out I had to write a 1 page reflection about it (I was stressed out for a moment there) now I'm back on posting on my blog. Since today is dedicated to school work, I thought of trying to post it here as well, just for feedback as well as in honor for the people who inspired me to write it. Feel free to comment on tips on how to improve it or just say whatever you like about it.

SERVICE LEARNING REFLECTION

During the time I was volunteering in Joeten Kiyu Library I had learned many things. I had met new people faced some troubles and overcame those troubles along the way and gain new knowledge under my supervisors and colleagues care. Originally, I was supposed to start May 7^th this year, but due to unexpected circumstances my schedule was pushed back one week. Because of this, I preserved to work even harder. My fellow volunteers had originally set our end of volunteer before the end of July but it looks like we would be finished one month early. Before the end of the school year, I had worked four hours each day while juggling with projects and studying for exams. As time fly by I grew fond of my job and began to hate the fact that I’d have to leave the job I had come to love. My first dream job back in elementary was to be a librarian, over time it changed to becoming a writer, two years before my graduation I had never expected to work closely to my original dream job. Although it is not worth talking highly, it is an honor to serve the public library and aide my hardworking senior supervisors. Rain or Shine, I had preserve in trying to come in on time during my required schedule, walking from school to the library just for the sake of doing what I had come to love. Although this was not the first place I had experience working, I had learned so much more. I had learned how to be patient with my colleagues and control my anger, I had learned how to organize and aid customers/local visitors, I learned how to become responsible and control my time management. I had exercised my social skills as well as learned customer care. While on this job, it gave me the opportunity to exercise my reading skills. I’d laugh at the times when I was a newbie walking around not knowing where all the books are supposed to be placed, when someone asks me where the series of their preference was I was embarrassed to tell them because I had not known where it was. This job had taught me how to become bold and preserve.

"You're gonna miss me when I'm gone"

Pitch Perfect never gets old, especially when watching it over and over again. We watched it again today since we had free time after our SBA testing :) Becka's cup song inspired me to dedicate this post to it. Today my friends acted like counselors which was fun (3 girls talking about our love lives). My close friend was talking about how she was frustrated over her boyfriend who was a senior and would soon leave her, the other said she liked this guy and told him how she felt but ended up friend zoned/ sister zoned. I on the other hand can't muster up the courage to tell my crush for 3 years I like him. So each of us were giving each other advice's, and out of no where the song came up in my mind. My friend would miss her boyfriend when he graduates, and my other friend's crush would miss her once she is gone but at the same time its funny because he would be leaving and she's not sure if he's coming back. I on the other hand didn't see my crush for the day and I already miss him (LOL). It's a natural instinct for a person to miss a person when they aren't at their presence. For example, this girl liked this guy, the guy however didn't feel the same way at first, when she was gone he finally realizes that he missed her.

Independence

My dad once said "We aren't going to be with you guys forever, we'll eventually leave you and you'll have a family of your own. Furthermore, you got to learn how to live by yourself and only depend on your strength and capabilities." It's true, if I want something I have to earn it, I have to get good grades, work hard and play hard. If you don't work hard with your own power and depend on others all the time, how would you live in this world, no one would always be there for you to catch you when you fall and fix your mistakes, it's your problem so deal with it. Independence depends a person's ability and willingness to help themselves and trust in themselves.

Reverse Psychology

When everythings falling into place, that's when you think that the perfect moment suddenly falls apart. I'm so angry that mom didn't do the laundry earlier :( Usually on Tuesdays (PT for JROTC) i'd wear my green blouse [don't ask me why I wear a blouse in a day i'd obviously sweat because i'll just say, that's what I want you got your ways of dressing and I got mine] so anyway, I liked this guy since junior high so basically I liked him or had a crush on him for about 3 years. Last Friday, I had this feeling that he'd been staring at me from across the gym (maybe it was someone else) he hangs out in front of my class because his friend is my classmate, we'd exchange quick glances and look away in the past, he usually doesnt wear any other color and surely he never wears green on a school day -ahem i'm not a stalker. (I'm used to seeing him in dark colors or polo's) so I was shocked that on the day I was supposed to wear my favorite green shirt he wears it. I just hate reverse psychology, when you least expect it, it all surges in and ruining the moment especially at times when you do not wish for attention.

It's not that I can't relate...

My favorite quote of all time by Kakashi Hatake sensei "it's not that i can't relate, it's just that I don't feel the same way". (Naruto Shippuuden - for those who are wondering) I gotta admit I was laughing at the same time wishing I could fist bump him. It's like me saying "it's not that I don't like you alone, it's just that I hate socializing with people like you" I'm not a human hater since I am a human after all, it's just sometimes I just hate people's reasoning behind hatred. Sometimes I thought of myself as a guidance counselor since I always have to listen to people's problems, it's not that I don't like it because I love to listen to people and try to help them with their problems. But the people I can't tolerate are those who talks about others behind others back especially if they are our friends. Well there are some people who I'd agree with when they are reasoning, but most of the time I'd just agree half heartedly just to avoid confusion and conflict. I hate being in the middle of things, so if I you have to make me choose between you or them and vice versa please don't because I don't like taking sides. Since I'm in a diverse group of friends there is no avoiding conflicts. there is this person that I could really relate with and there would be this person who'd want me to agree with them even if its not right. Again, its not that I can't relate its just that I dont feel the same way, maybe that person is annoying but that doesn't mean I'll discriminate that person right? If they want to remove that person from that group don't be upset and be a b**** to someone who feels the same way as the other. Im an easy going person and i'd be friends with anyone so if you have someone you hate dont expect me to hate them as well because you could just be judgmental and you aren't even trying to get to know them. But if that person does have a bad attitude then maybe I'd agree. 

Watching Anime... You can learn a lot ;)

Recently been watching Naruto Shippuuden. Just can't stand not posting my favorite quotes :) I don't really like quotes but if it's from Naruto, I'll love them. Seriously, you could learn a lot because of the elders.

Pein: If there is justice in vengeance then justice will only breed more vengeance and trigger a cycle of hatred

Naruto: I stand by what I say because that's my ninja way

- Sometimes we have to sacrifice everything we have just to make the people we love happy

Nagato: Out of love sacrifice is born hate is born and we are able to know pain

Jiraya: When ur hurt you learn to Hate when you hurt others ur tormented by guilt

Kakashi: It's not that I can't relate it's just that I dont feel the same way.

Kakashi: If u don't open ur heart others won't open up to you

Do you think that telling a lie is a good thing if telling the truth would gravely affect the person

Chatting

I'm a anti social person AT FIRST. Thanks to my friends, i've become a social media addict and became less anti social (Yay). So I was chatting with my friend in FB, really fun. You can get in touch with your friends around the world, and feel in touch even when you are far away :). I just love the new generation, we are no longer cave men and we can go around the world with just a single click of a button :P