I despise you...

I usually don't hate people, because I have an easy going personality. I'm nice if your nice. But if you piss me off and mess with my family and friends you've never seen hell yet. I can be patient but there is a limit to that. I've gone through worst times maybe they are not as bad as you guys out there but there is a dead limit to my kindness as well. Ever since I was young my family had been betrayed over and over by people we thought we could call friends... Screw them. My dad said after they get what they want they'll forget about friendship and believe in the saying "never trust anyone but yourself or family". My family used to be in the middle not too poor, not too rich when I was young my dad worked and co-owned a Chinese Internet shop. We get free Internet, and because he was popular his "friends" tagged along with him just for the luxury. But nothing lasts, when my dads employer left and eventually the Internet shop had to be closed his friends left as well. We hadn't seen them in a long time until what? When I'm 14? That was when they completely forgot about us and was only nice because we were neighbors. It was troublesome because they were annoying and stubborn. They were only nice for a month or two. They never invited my dad or family to parties after we moved back in and out of the neighborhood and since my dad is practically useless now that he couldn't see, it's more of pity and to them it was pretty much useless to hang around him anymore. The more I despise useless people who use you. Also back when I was young, there was this guy who my parents helped. We treated him like family and he back stabs us. He ran away and left us troubled for a mistake he created and should have been thankful because we tool the downfall. We moved to many homes unable to pay our rent. Besides the problems in my household my fathers words turned out to be true, growing up since I was smart I am used a lot for help in their math homework's, that was the common case people considered me as friends until the end of junior high. I gained real friends in high school but problems never seemed to leave yet. Currently my group are facing a hate feeling with one another and I'm one of those who are in the middle. I have to walk around listening to both sides talking behind their backs. I have to carry this burden on my shoulder hoping they'd get along quick. My father had his 2nd stroke which led to all sorts of sickness including his currents glaucoma and diabetes which blinded his eye sight. Despite this he still works to feed us because my mom quit her job because her employer doesn't pay them and her boss goes to poker. My dad is looked down upon because he looks like an idiot half blind especially when he trips. I want to defend him at times that he is being laughed at but that's when I'm at school and he's at work. No one consider his hard work as admirable since he is just a technician but he's a hell of a lot better of a technician than they knew, he was even a electrian he does all sorts of stuff if he can just to help us. It's just that faith always brought him to the wrong jobs because he had no college experience. Unlike the people he had worked with, he works with them despite their uselessness. He knows he is being played with and laughed at behind his back but he proves to be a better person than those who act like a teachers pet acting all cool when their boss is around and taking all the credit when my dad was actually the one who did it. I'm not heroizing my dad and making him look pitiful because this is what I saw first hand as his daughter. I know that my dad is hard working and I've seen his lazy ass workmates belittle him. As much as I want to hurt all of them I'm powerless right now. I dreamed of being something admirable like be a lawyer to help people like my father get justice. And as much as I want to let all of those who hurt my family, my parents said committing crimes was bad and that they'd get their day someday. I wanted to be the hardworking person who no one would laugh at and instead looking up at, admire and like me for being me not because I was smart or hardworking the true and pure kindness that should have been given to not only me but my family.